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I am super tired as i write this....busy weekend to say the least...yesterday afta so long played soccer well....i know i am no pro but i have my own personal best standard, its still some way off yesterday but for a very long time i haven played like this, so i am very glad and my fitness although quite questionable much betta now...

Today went east coast to celebrate my ORD....lol damn happy with idiotic frens whu are always crapping and as always the sea makes me feel so much betta...whenever i go to the beach i feel like the sea is carrying my burden yet ironically i also feel very burdened when i go there....i feel very lonely and i see couples and ppl doing my dream things whith their special ones and my heart just hurts like crazy...aniwaes lets not digress here....it was fun and super tiring day...i took a cab home and two mins into the journey and i was in lalaland alrdi...aniwaes i want to thank my darlings for bein there for me this very day two years ago as i entered ns and i want to thank u for supportin me thruout and for bein there for me till today...

Aniwaes, there i feel alot of feelings for different people and knowing me for bein the person whu is frank enuff to come to ur face and tell u about it, trust em when i say i'll get to u,,,,alot of things i need to sort of and myave this week is meanto be that weak...i have alot of meetings with sponsors and i hope we can tie down these investors quickly...

Lastly, i watched bruce almighty again as i thoroughly enjoyed the movie the first time i watched it and coupled with being to the beach i was very emotional high on love today...to all my frens thank u, thanks alot for bein my fren and for continuing to be my fren....To my special one, i hope u find sum1 who treats you in the way i wish u'd be treated...i wish for u all the happiness in the world and may the man of ur dreams come up to you and bless your life...i am not fit to say i love you, i am not fit to be the one that cathes ur tear...i am half the man u need...i wish i was, i wish each night i was...but sad to say u deserve better... I love you...